I have been married over a year now and have wanted nothing more then create a beautiful child with my husband. Being a mother is the only thing I have ever wanted to be when I grow up.

This is not a bash against single mothers. My closest friend has been a single mother for 10 years and pulled herself out of the dark and is doing wonderfully. I am upset at the fact that I feel that I am doing everything right and have not yet reaped the rewards. I know, I know, when I finally get pregnant and give birth none of this will matter. And you know it probably wont but it doesn't mean it's not bothering me now.

Like I said, I have always aspired to be a mother and I was dang well sure I was protected untill I got married. I wanted to have a family, not just a child. Then I met the man I want to grow old with we got married and yet we can't have children. Not physically can't, monetarally can't. Neither of us have insurance, just this April we finally moved off the trailer on his parents farm. We finally both have steady jobs (mine has insurance that will kick in around January) and are working our way into normalville. Back to my point...

I used to work in daycare. About a year ago one of my much younger co-workers got pregnant had no insurance and wasn't technically dating the man who fathered her child. She just kind of shrugged her shoulders, went on government medical support and went on to have a happy mommyhood living off the system. She is the kind of person that I have all the faith in the world that she will one day finish school and be a success story. I am actually happy for her. I guess I'm just pissed off at the fact that I am tired of waiting, tired of doing things the right way and I feel that others get rewarded for not trying!

I don't know this rant has been stupid but I needed to get it off my chest.

Ask anyone and they will tell you that for 99% of the population there is never a monetary stable time to have a child...you might have a job today but next week after you get pregnant you may not. And before I had insurance I got pregnant and yes I had to use the government. Would you rather me of had not gotten prenatal care. Am I a bad person for using some of the money I pay out in taxes every week to help myself? I think that you need to read to yourself what you just typed and think about it. Now I am pregnant again and thank God I do have insurance, and this time it is planned. But 3 months into my pregnancy I lost my job and my husbands hours got cut in half. I really think that you need to be thanking God for what yo uhave not griping about it. Almost noona has the money to comfortably raise a child. Grow up.

Not to make thing sound like it could be a longer wait but remember it could be worse.. My younger sister sounds a lot like you and your hubby.. She and her husband decided after a year the would begin trying for a family, he being 19 years older than her we thought for sure it had to be him. In the coarse of the three years following the start of the "TRYING" period my sister had a few cists on her ovaries that we thought were ppretty comman until one ruptured, that put her in the emergency room. She left the Hospital with one ovary and one fallopian tube and we thought her chances were shot if not gone to concieve... It has been a total of five years since they got married and have a beautiful, healthy baby boy who just turned one year old.. Thing can adn will happen, just continue to be patient and now that there is a time and a season for everything and maybe that little one is waiting for everything to be set in place for you and yours.. good Luck and my God be with you!!

This looks like an awesome program! When will the other 49 states catch on?